A Beautiful Riot

college

Wed, 09 Jan 2008 02:57:46 GMT

so it's definatly been forever since i've posted in this.
well its thel ast half of my senior year.
i'm moving to Lancaster, PA in august to go to the Pennsylvania College of Art and Design and major in photography
im pretty pumped. im getting my own apartment since they dont have dorms. the school only has like 250 kids in it. soo small. but i dig it.
pretty pumped to get out of torrington for once in my life.
definatly a life changing experience.

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 04:06:15 GMT

havent written in a while.
dont really care.
daily updates arent needed.
just got home from tennessee.
school sucks.
looking for colleges sucks worse.
thats it.

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 10:43:30 GMT

so i found out steve cheated on me, with the exact girl i knew he would
i love it when im right.
and the funny thing is that, i dont even care
i never have to see him again, or even talk to him for that matter
so, its whatever.
plus, russ = cute

update

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 03:44:48 GMT

i never write in here anymore but, here's an update

i dont have a job, still. except i work at metropolis occasionally when dan needs me.
steve and i broke up. the whole long distance thing wasnt working at all.
russ and i kind of have a 'thing' going on haha
i like him alottt. he's cute.
im with him prettttyyy much everyday, and he and i gross andrew out alot haha
its amusing.
russ and i are going to see streetlight manifesto, against all authority and tip the van at the webster tomorrow night. that should be funnn.

all in all. my summer has been pretty good.
and im excited to go back to school and be a SENIORR aw yeah

thats all

i saw a shooting star tonight

Sat, 30 Jun 2007 03:25:43 GMT

and had a very deep conversation with russ and andrew about the creation of the universe, time, matter and the future. i like conversations like that, no one ever has deep meaningful conversations anymore so it was nice.
i've been hanging out with russ alot lately, like pretty much every day. except today andrew, jess, sonnie and i went to lake compounce and met up with jess's friend Jordan who was amazing and really nice. and it was such a good day, we were there for like 6 hours and went on every ride. it was great.
then on the way home, i started getting really depressed. like, bad. and now i just feel really shitty and just realize how much life just blows right now. i have no job, only $100 left in my bank, if i dont get a job soon my car is getting sold, my boyfriend lives hundreds of miles away and ive only talked to him 3 times this week, i only see him once a month and its driving me crazy. i miss him so much that i think im like, dying.

long distance relationships suckkkkk. but it'll be worth the pain eventually.
i miss him so muchhh :(
ahh

tomorrow i'm working metropolis from 2 till who knows while dan and jess are out of town. come visit.

summah

Sat, 26 May 2007 17:00:31 GMT

i realize i havent written here in a while
steve was supposed to go into the navy, but he got out of it and is now living with his friend adam and i dont get to talk to him alot anymore :( but i'm hopefully going to PA to stay with him for a week after school gets out. it should be a good time.
school is almost out, i'm psychedddd, gonna be a senior :] i already have a few colleges picked out, i'm gonna have to start applying soon! shit, i need to start my portfolio hahaha i'm so lamee

so steve is the cutest boy ever :] i cant get over it. he was here last weekend and he and i went go-cart racing :] and went to a playground and went on swings and it was amazingly corny &hearts; i love it when life is good.

cant wait for summmerrrr
oh, and i also need a job, BADLY so if anyone can help meee it would be appreciated :]

Tue, 01 May 2007 01:44:13 GMT

needless to say, my weekend was amazing
i got to spend it with steve :]
he came here from PA on a bus
it was so amazing. i love that boy SO much
and i cant wait to be with him again.

I'm the happiest i've ever been and no one better ruin that

Wed, 25 Apr 2007 15:32:57 GMT

2 more days!!

monroe!

Tue, 10 Apr 2007 01:15:09 GMT

so i got a monroe piercing and i absolutly love it!
i did it myself last night and it looks ALOT better than i thought it would. i love it alottt
my parents havent seen it yet but im really hoping i can convicne them to let me keep it, i just bought a real stud for it today since i only have an earring in it now. and the stud is smaller and less noticeable so hopefully since its not like gaudy or overthe top they wont mind to much

i like it alottttt.
i like steve alottttt :]
and my mom likes steve! she thinks he's cute and she doesnt care that hes 20 and thinks he and i are cuteee. i like it when my mom is cool about things.
im so freaking happy with everything right now

Thu, 05 Apr 2007 17:06:09 GMT

so love is complicated.
in the past 3 weeks i've fallen in and out of love.
or what i'd call love.
emily freaked out on me and told me that im ridiculous for saying i love steve when i've never met him
and i'm sure other people think the same way, but no one sees things the way i do
no one else is in my place. i think its perfectly possible to fall for someone youve never met
how do you think all that online dating got started
and people fall in love online/on thep hone all the time. my sister's best friend met her husband on that eHarmony site and they're perfect for eachother
why cant steve and i be the same way?
granted we met on myspace and not on eHarmony but i still have th right to care about him
and i do. alot. and i'm genuinly considering going to College in PA so i can be with him
i'd love to be with him because i do love him. i've known him for over 2 years and he's been my best friend for jsut as long
He treats me like im amazing and he talks to me like no one has before. he's so cute and he likes to be corny like i do :] and thats really important to me because i like to be corny with people i like because im ridiculous. He's hot, like really good looking and he actually cares about me.
i think falling inlove online and on the phone like this and having never met is the best way to fall in love. because then you know that they're actually interested in you and not just trying to get some ass. and the fact that we love each other so much without even having a physical relationship yet says alot too
someone stop me if i talk about him too much
but i cant help it, he makes me feel so excited and alive and happy. i haven't smiled this much in almost 2 years and he can make me laugh like no other.
it just seems so right, you know? like, i dont even know how to explain it because its too hard to comprehend. he just amazes me and i dont think ive ever felt like this before.
he's coming to see me sometime soon and im so ecstatic for that, like im about to burst with excitement. i cant stop thinking about him and about whats gonna happen when we're together.

i want this to last a long time. &hearts;

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i cant believe how fast this is happening

Mon, 02 Apr 2007 15:32:12 GMT

so im pretty much in love with steve. he's the CUTEST boy EVER and he's such a sweetheart<3<3
tom is being a dick and like rubbing Dani in my face and telling me how she slept over his house andthey did whatever and im like... wtf i dont want to know this. i havent done anything with anyone sicne we've been broken up. well he can suck a fat one because steve is coming here in two weeks and im SO FUCKING EXCITED he makes me happier than tom ever did. <3<3<3<3<3
steve is amazing. end of story. <3

die.

Fri, 30 Mar 2007 03:17:43 GMT

Summary:
Tom called me a whore because i'm friends with steve from PA
Tom thinks im going to go off and be a skank
Tom deserves nothing. rot in hell.

its none of his business who i'm friends with. he's the one that dumpedme so fuck him.
i can be friends with steve all i want. steve has been one of my best friends for 2 years. i met him before i knew who tom was.
so, needless to say i'm enraged.
and i wish steve was here.
steve has been the only thing to make me happy since tom dumped me.
tom's made me totally miserablleee

immunity

Fri, 23 Mar 2007 17:50:02 GMT

i think i have an immunity problem because im sick constantly.
my mom thinks so too and she wants to get me tested
right now i have an infected tonsil/lymphnode and a fever of 102 and im all messed up
ive been in bed for 24 hours straight
but steve has been making me feel better and kelsey is coming over after school today since i cant go anywhere.
ughh i feel so miserable :[

i hate how horoscopes are always eerily right

Fri, 16 Mar 2007 05:56:43 GMT

Patty's Horoscope:

You may be concerned with something that you have kept to yourself and are now trying to determine the best time to share it with someone else. You want to be alone so you can work out your dilemma, but responsibilities prevent you from retreating. Instead of getting angry about your situation, try to remain flexible, for you'll have time for your inner work soon enough.

absolute worst day of my life

Thu, 15 Mar 2007 01:48:30 GMT

school was okay

then after school tom saw me smoking

wouldnt talk to me

got to work and realized i left my clothes home

went to get them and dropped my shirt in a puddle

got a new one, tom shows up a work and tells me never to ask him to trust me again

leaves and then breaks up with me via text message

i hate my life

oh avril lavigne

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 18:50:58 GMT

i dislike her greatly but her new song is just so up-beat and happy that i cant help listening to it. over and over. oh well.
been looking into summer programs to go to for photo, i found some in NY and in PA but i think i'll just end up staying here and going to Northwestern, although the one in PA looks nice, its only 5 days long and everything i do gets put into a show at the end of the 5 days. They dont have the option to stay on campus so i'd have to live in like a hotel somewhere thats close enough to walk or take a bus or something. plus i know steve who lives in PA but i dont know how far away he is from the Art Institue of Philidelphia. oh well, ive got time to think abotu it.

CAPT week is overr which means a long grueling day tomorrow. no getting out at 10/11 like i love so much. i'll get used to it.
someone spill some more mercury this week. if only szabe werent suspended.

Mon, 05 Mar 2007 17:31:24 GMT

Monday, March 5, 2007

Pisces (Feb 19 - Mar 20)

Your emotional landscape changes abruptly as the Sun joins erratic Uranus in your sign. This can mark the start of something new as cracks suddenly appear in the brittle shell that has kept you safe. It's time for you to emerge, so don't waste energy trying to repair the breach. Instead, think of the life ahead for the baby chick once it has broken free from the egg.

i love CAPT week

Fri, 02 Mar 2007 03:03:00 GMT

my birthday was pretty good. it couldve been worse.
looking forward to hanging out with kelsey and tori this weekend.
looking forward to summer.
3 1/2 months of school left.
next week is capt which = me getting out at like 10/11 everyday.

Monday:

Period 1 7:25 - 8:05

Period 2 8:09 - 8:49

Period 3 8:53 - 9:33

Period 4 9:37 - 10:10

Tuesday:

Period 5 7:25 - 8:20

Period 6 8:24 - 9:19

Period 7 9:23 - 10:18

Period 1 10:22 - 11:05

Wednesday:

Period 2 7:25 - 8:11

Period 3 8:15 - 9:05

Period 4 9:09 - 9:58

Period 5 10:02 - 10:40

Thursday:

Period 6 7:25 - 8:05

Period 7 8:09 - 8:56

Period 1 9:01 - 9:46

Period 2 9:50 - 10:25

Friday:

Period 3 7:25 - 8:15

Period 4 8:19 - 9:15

Period 5 9:19 - 10:14

Period 6 10:18 - 11:00

good & bad

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 17:23:09 GMT

The good thing about today is that my parents didn't want me to drive to school and were pissed that THS didnt close.
The bad news is i was supposed to take 2 history quizes and stay after school for a chemistry test.
hopefully gamari and gregori will understand.
i dont know about gamari because he can be kind of insensitive.

more good news. my birthday is in 2 days. this weekend, Kelsey Tori and I are trying to plan something to do because they're birthday is right after mine on March 7. I'm also supposed to go with my dad to look at stereos for my car sometime this week.

i slept in till noon today. i have to straighten my hair and go to the bank!

New LJ

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 12:43:29 GMT

So i decided to get a new LJ because i didnt like my other one.
i put in my last entry from my old one.

not going to school because my mom doesnt want me to drive. i lucked out :]
birthday: 2 days

We're going to a party, it..it's a birthday party. It's your birthday party, happy birthday darling

Mon, 26 Feb 2007 12:41:40 GMT

So my birthday is this wednesy day and i'm excited. :] i love birthdays. i used to hate them ferociously but last years was real good because tommy threw me a suprise party and people i didn't expect to come actually showed up. and i'm excited becuase my dad is getting me a new stereo system for my car<3<3 and my mom is taking me to a day spa.
i have no clue what tommy's doing for me but he hinted that it was expensive which makes me nervous because i dont like him spending alot of money because he doesnt have alot of it. he just got a job at friendlys though. i know, friendlys isnt the best place to work but he applied everywhere in town but no one wanted him. i'm just glad he finally found one.

i stayed at tommys for the weekend. his mom is entering a pilsbury baking contest so shes been making pies and cookies like crazy trying new recipies. last night she mad a chocolate creme pie and used chocolate chip cookies has the pie crust and it was absolutly amazing. she and i started thinking up names to call it. and i went out with tommy, his brothers and dad and shot BB guns into some targets in the back yard. it was pretty cool since i never shot any kind of gun before and hit the target on my first try.. but never hit it again after that hahaha.

i have to take 2 history quizes and a chem test tomorrow. shoot me. i cant wait for junior year to be over because next year im only taking 2 core classes, the rest are all art/yearbook. psyched.

someone suggest me good art schools to look into that arent in CT. :]